As he was getting into the boat, the man who had been possessed by demons begged him that he might be with him. But Jesus refused, and said to him, “Go home to your friends, and tell them how much the Lord has done for you, and what mercy he has shown you.” Mark 5:18-19 (NRSV)
My father was a minister. The important visitors in our home were all ministers. Needless to say, I wanted to be a minister when I grew up. In fact, all my life I have wanted to be involved with the ministry of the church. During the period of my life when I was most seriously plagued with delusions of grandeur, I believed God had called me to be one of His special witnesses (Revelation 11). Today, I seek through writing, to reach out to those seeking peace in their lives.
Something wonderful had happened to the man possessed by demons in our passage today. It is probably only natural that he wanted to prolong that good feeling. To him, that meant following Jesus as one of his disciples. Jesus refused his request, but in its place gave him an alternative calling. He was to go home and witness to his family about what Christ had done for him. Perhaps Jesus felt that the intense life of being physically with Him every day was more than the healed demoniac could handle. Indeed, Jesus’ recommendation was the best one. At home he might possibly find the support and care not to be found in the glaring spotlight of Jesus’ divine ministry.
I have been disappointed that I could not be in the spotlight. I worked hard to obtain a Ph.D. in order to gain some measure of recognition. Today, I’m homebound, but I accept that as Christ’s ministry for me. God has a place for each one of us and mine is at home.
Please pray this prayer with me: “Dear Jesus, thank You for Your healing hand on my life. You understand my desire to do something significant and noble. However, help me to graciously accept the place where You want me to serve You and others. Amen.”